I am confined to the house until… I don’t know. 5 days until I add another candle to the cake. Another year to my years. Another step closer to the future I fear. Gulp. Friday night. Friends are out. I am home. Stupid me and my promises. Promised mom no more night outings until after my finals. Things I do just so I could be there to celebrate his birthday. I didn’t realise I like him that much! Sheeesh. Must be the eyebrow piercing he got *Hehe* I don’t even know if I’ll be able to go out on MY birthday. Probably just for a bit, not stay out the whole night and freak out. Bummer. Oh well.. I’ll do that after my exams. I suppose it’ll be sort of a delayed celebration or something. At this point, I don’t even feel like celebrating. Okay, that’s a lie. I’m always up for a good party, but with mom getting on my case every 5minutes… 20th February is looking pretty dim. I don’t even feel like planning anything. Not to mention I overspent during the past week. I don’t even know what I did with my money. This is nuts. Now I’m bringing myself down. I suppose when there’s a possibility of not being able to party as hard as you want, dealing with parental and inner issues and with the pressure of finals… I just can’t sit down and plan anything. My mind’s way too occupied. I can’t even plan tomorrow, let alone something a week away. My birthday’s gonna suck mass0r ass.
Wow.. I’m not writing as much as I used to. Been very lazy and all that. You understand. Oh yeah, got the photos from the shop. Superb stuff! Went out with Fahmy, Rakhma and AJ on Sunday. Fahmy was craving this meatball pasta at Dave’s, so we went there. Yazmin came by to say hello, she had to drop her cousin off there and joined us for a bit. Rakhma left with her later because it’s her mom’s birthday and they’re having dinner together. Me, Fahmy and AJ had dinner with SHakhira and Ajim. Fahmy left, I hopped into Shak’s car and we drove around looking for things to do. Monday, we had lunch at this chicken rice place in Kampung Baru. The crowd: Me, Fahmy, AJ, Farah, Ajim, Gerald, Shakhira, Rakhma and Shakir. Ajim and Gerald were from the office, they stayed for a bit and then had to get back to work. They’re too crazy, long lunch and then left work early. Someone came up with the idea of hitting PLanet Hollywood. We did that, I messed up (hehe) so the girls had to leave early. Went over to Shakhira’s place to grab a bite to eat and settle down.. Was home by 11.30pm. Rakhma left for Melbourne yesterday *Sniff sniff* we went to the airport to see her off. Gave her a couple of pictures in frames, one of the crowd on Friday night and the other of me and her. I miss her already!!!! Anyways, I’m feeling sucky because of LOADS of stuff. I’m so irritable right now… I’m even seeking comfort in food. Bad. I’m filling up on diet coke, atleast that’s practically 0 cals. Bleh. Imma go now.
um yah. been outta d house since Friday the 8th. Partied that night. Celebrated eye-candy’s birthday on the 9th (countdown, it’s actually on the 10th), got smashed more than he did, had mass0r fun. Partied again on the 12th, got even more smashed, still feeling super dumb about getting overly sick, i think i had a good time and my crush is gettin out of control *Help!* . More fun continues.. finally went home on the 13th. Went to the airport to send Shakhira’s sister off (starting Uni in Melbourne, Australia). Today (14th): Got up at 1pm, had one hell of a fucked up lunch (can’t even remember what), munched on tiny cookies, went to 1Utama with Fahmy, watched him eat wishing I could too, Shakhira joined us, followed her around shopping and last minute v-day gift hunting, Fahmy dropped me off, munched on tiny cookies, had dinner alone, munched on tiny cookies, got emotional, danced to a few cool tracks alone, all the while feeling super fucked and now feelin majorly fat and depressed. Happy Valenfuckingtine everyone.
Party session at BarFlam last night. Rakhma’s last friday night out in KL, she’s heading back to school (in Melbourne) on Tuesday =( Still haven’t slept since I got up for class at 8.30am yesterday. Crazy crowd, crazy acts and mad laughing back at the apartment. It was very cool and we even took photos. I had fun. I don’t feel like getting detailed right now. I’m kinda bummed ‘cuz I can’t be out partying again tonight. Parental issues =\ Sucks, eh? Anyways, I’m not gonna think about it too much.. It’ll only make me feel worse. I’m just waiting for bedtime, if I can sleep that is *Hehe* Just looking forward to 1pm when the prints will be ready. Can’t wait.
Happy New Year!! Last night’s new year celebration was kinda different. Yeah, I had fun (as usual)… This time around it felt really laid back, though. But it did cost me more moolah *Hehe* Me and a few friends got this 2 bedroom suite at a superly low price. My friend’s uncle is somebody there or something, so she got a special rate. Countdown was at Bintang Walk, after the fireworks we went to have a drink while deciding where to go… We decided to just walk towards Beach Club, but the place was packed like mad. In the end we ended up in Flux . We didn’t stay there long, though… Probably a couple of hours at the most, but I did get to dance. So, I was happy. After that we headed back to the hotel and all of us just hung out and talked. A few other people came by later, so it was pretty alright. I had fun, even though didn’t get to do much. As the matter of fact, I haven’t had any sleep yet =) I nodded off around 8am for maybe 15minutes and then around 1.30pm for another 10minutes probably. Thing is, I’m not feeling sleepy at all right now. Not even tired. Cool, eh? Anyways, just wanted to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR . I’m still calculating last night’s expensense, and it’s giving me one hell of a scare. Adios.
The photos (from my birthday) are superb! I can’t stop looking at them. Everyone looks so happy.. and sloshed *Hehe* The angles of the pictures are great, thanks to Ajim and Wira. Thanks, guys! Damn, I was hugging everyone and just as I suspected, there were a number of me and eye-candy *Hehe* The group photo we had one of the waitresses snap turned out extremely well. What can I say.. they’re all just perfect!! Very excited here. Had dinner at Modesto’s (Telawi) with Shak, Ajim and Denen. Gerald hung out for a few, then he had to split. After dinner, me and Denen hit BarFlam for a bit. Shak and Ajim went to pick Myrna (Shak’s cousin), ‘cuz she needed to talk to Shakhira about something. So, it was me and Denen for about an hour or so. Oh, yeah.. he’s just TOO cute!!! *sigh* I’m losin’ it, aren’t I? I’ve got it baaaddd! *Haha* After BarFlam, we went to uptown to meet up with Fahmy and the guys. Stayed there for a short while and then headed home. Dolly bought me lunch today. Ofcourse I picked Chili’s.. what else, right? Tomorrow’s Aidiladha, warning sirens are already sounding loud and clear in my head.. abundance of food and I fear that I might lose a lil bit of self control. Help! Help! Know what? I’m kinda bored and getting lazy to write more. I’m gonna stop here and maybe blog more later tonight. I want a nap before dinner. O-oh.. I don’t know what I’m gonna have tonight. Not really hungry, though.. maybe I’ll skip.. I dunno. I’m out.
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! Last night was… wow. I had fun, loads of fun. It was a mellow kinda fun, I think. But then again, I was dancing the whole night with everyone to practically every song and didn’t sit down until the lights came on. Time flew by SO fast! I guess that happens when you’re having a blast *Hehe* Oh, and ofcourse the venue of the celebration was BarFlam. When I got there, even the hostess and the security guys (at the door) wished me a happy birthday. We had 2 tables reserved under Shakhira’s name. Yeah, the usual tables.. what else? *haha* Anyways, it was mass0r fun. I even got a couple of presents from the guys who works there. One from this security guy and another from a couple of waiters. Yeah, eye-candy’s one of ‘em *Hehe* At midnight, Shakhira even got the DJ to announce my birthday and he played a song for me. Sweet, huh? The crowd: Me, Shakhira, Farah, Ajim, Gerald, Fahmy, Im (he finished his shift but came back to join the party), Boboy, Wira, Shakir, Hani, A.J. and Carlos (he came for a drink n had to split). Anas was always dragged to our tables cuz he’s part of the group, he drank n even danced with us. Loads of birthday wishes, hugs, kisses and dancing after that. I even danced with eye-candy, but not for long cuz he has to work. Oh, we even had photos taken, 2 rolls worth. We stayed until closing and then went to eat while waiting for Anas to finish up at BarFlam. After that it was back to the headquarters (Shakhira’s place) for the usual after clubbing hang out. Anas and Im came with us. We hung out, the guys had to leave early morning because of work and classes. Some went to sleep, me and Anas decided to look for a movie to watch. Halfway through we got bored and hung out with Shakhira and Ajim in the room. Bla bla bla… I dont feel like writing every single thing. But, take my word for it… It was a great night. THANKS YOU GUYS! After sending Anas and Im to work (they start early today), we sent Farah home and then Shakhira and Ajim dropped me off. I thought I was late for something at home, but apparently I was mistaken. Nobody wished me at home, yet. =( Good God! I gotta go drop of the rolls to be developed before the shop closes. I want the prints ASAP. Can’t wait to see how the photos turned up. Hopefully the ones I’m looking forward to come out okay. Gotta run. I’ll blog later about my presents count *Hehe*
I think it’s time to totally forget about it. It blows. But, hey, that’s life.. right? Life sucks. I know this moment would come, regardless me wanting it to or not. True, I was curious what’ll happen when it does. I suppose, deep down I was hoping it would be a little bit more encouraging, y’know? Oh well, you can’t force or make someone do or feel something they don’t wanna. This is bullshit. I don’t know why I’m letting this bother me in the first place. I mean, I went through my whole life with the “R” word.. so why should this be any different? Why am I turning into an emotional bitch? It’s not like there was anything in the first place, right? I gotta get a grip. I mean, why be such a “girl” over this and risk losing one heck of a good friend? I don’t want to lose a funny friend just because I can’t stop thinking like a teenager. *sigh* Still hurts, though =( Anyways, I have my final exam in the AM. I’m still not done reading the book but getting there. I had an early dinner, am now letting my stuffed tummy settle down so I could continue studying. The funny part of tomorrow is, I have no frickin’ clue what time my paper is. Scary shit, right? I know it’s in the morning, so I’m gonna play it safe and get my ass on campus before 8am. I went to check the schedule this morning but the damn faculty was all locked up. Yeah, I know, it’s Sunday. But the least they could’ve done was paste a copy outside the main door. Gotta go study now. Later.
Screw that last post! I’m not one to give up or wallow in self-pity, right? Besides, I think it kinda made me sound waayy emotional or something *Hehe* I’m having fun.. nothing wrong with that, true? I’m just gonna with the flow and enjoy the ride while it lasts. I don’t know where the stop is, or what it’s gonna be like.. I’m not about to worry too much about it. I’m here for the fun times and the excitement of curiousity. Woohooo! Had dinner at Hartamas with Fahmy, Boboy, Shak and Ajim. Anas got off work at 9pm last night, but joined us later when we hit Planet Hollywood after dinner. We hung out there for a bit, a few drinks and then made a move. I think we left at midnight or a little after that. Nothing much, just hanging out talking and observing the crowd. As for my exam.. it was at 10.20am, so I was there super early. Oh, and dumb me didn’t notice that they DID paste the exam schedule outside the door. Oops. Since I had a couple of hours to kill, I headed to Shak’s place to study. The paper turned out alright, I guess. With that out of the way, I am free of study worries until May. Except for one thing, I gotta get an application in for my degree course. I don’t think the forms are out yet, though. I’m feeling pain in the financial department, so I’m gonna start serving the evil empire of Business Trends again. Right now, I gotta go shower and hit the bank *Ouchy ouch* and pay off my debts. A couple bucks here and there and *Walla!* the total is about a hundred bucks. Funny shit. *Logs off*
I am A Floater . Floaters, the free birds of the shit family. Floaters drift through life without a care in the world, taking everything with a grain of salt, and smiling the whole way though. But friend of floaters are far and few in between. Because of there lofty views and social behavior, floaters tend to seem like they just don’t give a damn about anything, the reason being, because they usually don’t. What Kinda Shit Are You?
That little fight had been resolved yesterday. We met up for a late lunch, said sorry and spent the day hangin out. It’s such a relief to get that behind me, I said I was sorry for not being funny *Heh* We had lunch, looked at clothes, had dinner and then drinks at BarFlam. Eye-candy was there, so it’s super good *Hehe* I’m such a teenager. Who cares, he’s cute and I like him. Deal with it! =) I’ve decided to back to my original diet of salads and fruits. I’ve gained a whole lotta ever since my birthday and I’m not exactly thrilled. For dinner I had a whole meal roll and carrot sticks. Lunch was kinda late, I had this salad, Raita, at Dave’s.. sucked major ass! Breakfast was a slice of wholemeal toast (nothing on it) and then an orange for my mid-morning snack. I think I had an apple before lunch, ‘cuz Fahmy only picked me up at 5pm for lunch. I guess it could’ve been my early dinner, but the Raita was fuctup and it left me unsatisfied. Hmmph. Oh well… I’m gonna go now. My tummy’s growling a little, but I’m gonna wait until breakfast. My favourite meal of the day. Before that, here’s a test I did a few minutes ago. G’nite. What Psych-Ward do you belong to?
Had a fight/misunderstanding last night. It blows major ass. I dont get why the anger is so massive or why it’s being prolonged. I’m not one who likes to stay angry and usually don’t. I made the first move, but have yet to get a respond from the other side… I don’t know if I should pick up the phone and call. Okay, fine, maybe it’s my fault.. but I explained it was meant as a joke and all that. I deserve some form of forgiveness right? The impact is kinda huge.. I was in tears last night and don’t even feel like talking today. This thing is too tiny to lose a friend over. This is too stupid. I really, honestly, don’t know what to do. Help?
I’m Jean Grey Goodness Gracious, you’re everyone’s favourite do-gooder Jean Grey, also known as Phoenix. You look after your teammates, get along with everyone, have a wonderful man who loves you and have pretty much achieved perfection. But look out when you’re PMSing and you become Dark Phoenix: a raging homicidal bitch with a knack for causing trouble. What X-Men Character are You?
+How la Darryl? + FUCKING cute! + *Hehe* Me and a couple of friends can’t stop saying that. One would ask the question, and the other will answer with “Fuuucking cute!” Just a little entertainment between us.. kind of an inside joke, I suppose. Well, it was another sleepless night for me last night. I got up around 1.30pm yesterday feeling majorly shitty. My head hurt, I was hungry and my energy level was zilch. It’s been 2 days and I’ve yet to recover 100%… This is nuts, considering the laid back NYE we had. I couldn’t even finish the soup and bread I decided to have for lunch. Felt like barfing. All my body wanted was fatty stuff.. FRIED fatty stuff! I ended up eating a banana fritter (2 bites, then I threw it away), a cookie (a nibble here n there, then it got binned) and maybe 2 glasses of pepsi. The sugar helped perk me up a little, thank God. It’s a good thing I wasn’t rejecting fruits, because that’s what kept me going. I finally gathered enough energy to shower and run a few errands around 4.30pm. After that I crashed infront of the TV and watched A Knight’s Tale . Funny stuff, but I’m halfway through the second disc. Shakhira called and we went to Bangsar for dinner. I wasn’t planning on eating anything ‘cuz I was still feeling a little icky. I had another pear while waiting for her to pick me up. Once in Bangsar (decided on this place called FeiFei), I found myself having the Cantonese Style Fried Noodles . The noodle stayed, only the prawns, chicken slices, veggies and gravy got digested. Nini joined us as we were finishing dinner, and then we headed to Coffee Bean to meet up with Rakhma. Now here’s where the trouble started. Well, not a major problem, really.. My tummy started to hurt BIG time. I could barely sit up straight, let alone stand up. The food wasn’t agreeing, and I ended up in the bathroom. I’ll ommit the gross details, but I’ll tell you this: it wasn’t pretty. I felt a little bit better, but still dodgy. Bla bla bla.. Me, Shakhira and Nini ended up in BarFlams . The place wasn’t packed, but most tables were occupied. Wednesday night, and it’s only the 2nd.. People are probably still recovering from NYE. Here is where it gets interesting *rub hands together* We were sitting there at our favourite table and checking out the DJ. He wasn’t spinning yet, so he was talking to people and walking all over. The 3 of us were just looking and commenting *ahem* on his yummy-ness *Hehe* Yada yada yada… this guy we know said something to him (we saw him pointing in our direction), and the DJ guy came over to say hello. He hung out with us for a bit, then he had to start spinning. He is just TOO cute! He’s pretty friendly.. and kinda funny. Oh yeah, his name’s Darryl =P Whoa.. I’m actually getting kinda tired. My eyes anyway. Still loads to tell.. but I’m not making any promises of a continuation like the last time. I’ll just end up too lazy to write anymore on the subject or whatever. Oh, did I mention I broke my phone’s antenna? Yeah, it was on new year’s. Don’t exactly know how it happened… But I did accidently hit the damn thing with my hand at one point. It’s still intact but really shaky and feels like it could just snap off anytime . Bummer. I do tend to go on and on, don’t I? I guess I’m gonna stop rambling now… Contemplating on what to do next. Should I sleep? Should I just keep myself busy? I lost a photo album containing recent shots, I could go look for it.. But just not in the mood. Oh well, whatever.. I’ll just see where my messed up mind takes me. Ciao.
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